MY HIDDEN PASSION

HOW MUCH DO I WANT AND HOW MUCH CAN I TAKE

Growing up I was taught that ladies are to act a certain way. Ladies are to maintain a certain image and maintain a certain standard for themselves. I was always told not to be like this person or act like this person so it instilled what some might call an old fashion way of life for me.

I didn’t date around or have one night stands. I committed early, settled down before I even knew what real love or passion was. All I knew was I had a family and I had to do what women do to take care of their household.

I was cheated on multiple times, it came to the point where I gave in to sexual acts just to keep my partner from stepping out.

It wasn’t until my 40s when my kids were all out of the house and I found myself separated from my soon to be ex husband when I was approached by someone who made me feel sensations through my body by just looking into there eyes, I had thoughts and urges I never knew existed in me.

This was no ordinary person, they were well experienced and very active and I was just plain ole Jane! The first time I experienced this person was a whole new look at sexuality to me! It was like learning my body for the first time. Everytime they touched me I craved more! For the first time I found myself wanted and needing to know how much more would I be willing to do to please this person at the same time wanting that person to do things to my body that I never had thought of before. The more I tried the more I wanted to experience.

The feel, the passion, the pleasure and the pressure all made me want more and more. Then there was no more, the urge and need I had for this person scared me into releasing them like quitting something cold turkey!

Now I’m still wondering, How much do I want and how much can I take. I don’t think anyone will ever make me feel that curious again